Ode to a new year

It's 7am.  I have a lot to do b4 the clock  strikes 12. Putting the final nail in the coffin of single digits.
2010 is my friend
2010 is my friend
2010 is my friend
My friend
My mantra
I can no longer stand
broken promises
Past mistakes 
Bad attitudes (mine and others)
The final moments of this Bitch
Has brought on the wrath of Satan .
Me clawing my way out of hell
To grasp a New Reality.
A purer version of myself.
The clock ticks
I throw water to protect
From final attacks
I should pray and do
Friends look like
Enimies in these
Last hours
Unwitting pawns
In the war against
Change
Battle fatigued
I hold my bloody flag
A declaration
A tattered note to self:
I AM HEAD BITCH!
Planting it seals
The fate on 'pretty puppy'.
My quiver is full
Hand shaking I take aim
1 arrow
2 then 3
Hitting random targets
Excrement and vomit
Skeleton spooks
Jangle limbs in
Retaliation
I launch more
Arrows
And listen
For the chime
Of the church bells
Out side my window
Not yet 8am
It's gray and cold
Between cracks of 
Curtained windows
I hear the church  bells
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8
It's gonna be a long day.

Tain Observations

I sat between 2 men today.
The smell of after shave, early morning sweat and the Daily News filled my nostrils provoking CHILDHOOD sense memory of DEAD PAPA.
smiles, hugs and weed runs.

Train observations / Transparent

Transparent

For a little bit of time now I've 
Seen you on the train
Head down in a book
Always the same
Tried to catch your glance
But not a chance seems to me
Definately to you I'm transparent
It's like I'm not there
Transparent
Clearly you see through me
Why must I be to you
Transparent
Try so hard not to stare at you
Try so hard cuz I know that it's rude
But your style your grace it's so apparent you have good taste
Can only imagine your history
you seem so good to me
And though we may be a perfect match that's if your unattached 
You still an itch I can not scratch 
Why must I be to you transparent
The invisible one forgettable
Transparent
Though we may be cut from
Similar cloth
Transparent

Sick days = vacation

Recently my company was obsorbed by a larger one.
We are going through a process known as "integration"
in this " integration" they have taken away certain non essential holidays (MLK)Day
taken away, personal days and shrank the number of vacation days, particularly for those not considered in the higher corporate realm.
I have been reflecting on this.
One of my bosses made a statement about the number of "sick days" he has taken, none was his braggadocious claim.
To which I wanted to say "eat me", the "work from home" option is available to certain salaried employees and management.
So my question to him ( in my mind) was yeah but how many fuckin days did you "work from home?"
further reflection has caused me to evaluate "sick days" and what that means to the majority of poor working folk.
I distinctly remember being in employment situations that did not provide vacation days though so The survival technique became clear,You take a sick day for which you could still retain something that resembled a paycheck.
I was thinking about this because even though I work in a "better situation" I have blown through my sick days. I have actually been sick but I wonder if I suffer too from an urban survivalist blight, Residual from my artist poverty. I don't know.
What I do know though is I'm not where I was in the work world but still a far cry from "work from home."
Still in my mind the question, does sickday = vacation?

Train observations / little kindness

The impulse to catch the person standing on the train when the train lurches forward. ( the person being a Hasidic Jew who has no love or consideration for you by custom)

The person next to you sitting on the train adjust himself once you've sat down giving you more room.

Seat opens up, Hasid man sits with no regard to women, older folks or children.

Train observations

I saw her again, she sat across from me on the train wearing a mock snake skin bag and sand colored clarks. I love her style. 
Searched my bag for a 1N card. The only day I don't have one.
Too bad.