I don't know how I feel

I'm sitting in my favorite little get away from work spot eating a very satisfying bowl of seafood soup with a side of sticky rice. It's one of those inbetween days. It no longer feels like summer, not really fall.suppose to rain but sky not ready. Me.. Not happy or sad, not alone but by myself. Almost content after having a reckless night....breaking a fast that had nothing to do with food. Smiling in memory of a dear dead friends words, "live" . This I think is a life time lesson.